I am reading a book called "Sacred singleness" by Leslie Ludy. I was initially advised to read "Authentic Beauty" and "When God writes your love story". While searching for those two books, I found the one I am reading now.
I chose to read "Authentic Beauty " first. From the summary of the book I gathered that it will deal with me as a individual who still needs to understand my worth, one who needed to be reminded of God's thoughts towards me.
I deeply believe that as believers we cannot enter into relationships without first having a healthy relationship with Christ. Some of us enter into relationships and cannot properly identify the voice of God. We need the presence of God, even in our relationships, to steer us in the right direction.
In addition to knowing who we are in Christ we should know what to do with our SINGLENESS. We have called Jesus our prince, our bridegroom but yet we scream "we are not satisfied with Christ alone!" By jumping into relationships to quickly. We should cherish our singleness. It is a period where we can prepare. Get our lives in order. Spend every waking minute in the presence of God.
I started yearning to be married and have children at the age of 7. I was in second grade! I spent every waking moment from that age until I was 14 , drawing wedding dresses and homes, playing M.A S.H to see how my life would pan out, naming my future kids. I remember at age 12 telling an old friend "If God wants to ever break my heart he would have to never let me marry or let me marry and have kids," Didn't I have homework? Why did I have so much time to obsess over my future?
At age 14, after almost losing my life earlier that year, I decided to join my best friend's church. I gave my life to Christ. Well not all of my life, just the parts I thought he could handle. I withheld the love department and my emotions concerning my family. That was for me to handle. I didn't obsess as much as I did at age 12 for a marriage but I still equated marriage with contentment.
With this fascination of mine, I got the bare minimum of kingdom work done. Times I could've spent witnessing, I spent clocking my phone to make sure I received a call or text from whoever I thought my husband would be. Singleness for believers shouldn't be about waiting for the next relationship to come along. Its about spending time with Christ, alone, uninterrupted. Getting the work, he gives you, done with passion. How can God trust us with a relationship if we constantly neglect our relationship with HIM?
I just, I'm talking last week, decided to surrender all of myself to God. What/ who God doesn't want me to have, He won't give me. What God wants for me, He will move mountains to give to me. There is nothing I can do about it. The single life isn't a punishment, its a reward.
Be and Stay Blessed.
